Wednesday, September 22, 2010

I Wanna Get Married

I can’t believe I’m even saying this, but I want to get married. I promised myself growing up that I would never attach myself to someone and let them “control” me in that way. However, after being with my boyfriend for a year, I am completely sure that he is the man I want to be with for the rest of my life. I’m sure a lot of people may think that 21 is too early to know something for sure, but I’ve never been more positive. Everything with Chris has been like this. Even before we were dating, I knew he was right for me and the one. I didn’t want life without him. He makes everything better, everything fun and exciting.
It’s just so crazy to me that I actually even have this on my mind. I never thought I would feel this way. You see, I have major trust issues, since growing up with my mom and seeing what she went through and how she treated people. I really thought that the only person I could count on was myself and hid my feelings and pushed everyone away. I realize now that it’s okay to want someone in your life, open up to them and bring them closer. Being alone just isn’t for me. He makes my life better and I want him a part of my life forever.
That’s what I realized, there’s a difference between feeling you NEED someone and just LIKING them in your life. That’s how I know things are right with him. I know I don’t need him but I want him around me.

Friday, September 10, 2010

Laying In The Grass

I have been having so much fun with my dog lately! I love laying in the grass with him. He gets all excited when I lay down, and he jumps all over me. Luckily he’s only like 3 pounds or it would probably hurt me lol. I could sit outside with him for hours and just let him run around. He’s so funny! I’m not sure what it is but he’s obsessed with leaves. He’ll sit there and chew on them. He also loves pinecones. Does your dog do that too? I just think it’s so hilarious.

I feel bad lately though, because I haven’t been walking him very much. I guess I’ve just been so tired from working and everything and I just don’t have the energy for much of anything right now. Any tips on how to walk your dog and just how to stay motivated? I know he needs to get out of the apartment more and get some fresh air; so do I.

I’m so glad we have three puppies, because they can all grow up together. I just wish they knew how to keep it down at night. They’re always running around, chasing each other; barking lol. I bet the neighbors downstairs hate us! Luckily, they’re moving really soon. I’m really surprised people haven’t complained about them. There was only one time that the neighbor told us that our dog was being loud and it was like 11pm. I felt really bad!! I didn’t realize he was that loud. I guess I just get used to him doing it. He hates when we go to bed at night, because he just wants to stay up. He gets all angry when we turn out the lights lol.

Sunday, September 5, 2010

I've Always Wanted To...

I’ve always wanted to be a singer. As far back as I can remember, I’ve always wanted to be a singer. I used to dance in front of the school back in Elementary School and there was just this awesome rush that came along with it. I will never, ever forget that feeling! It’s amazing to see the crowd and people cheering! I love seeing people dance along with me and all into what I’m doing. The lights on you are also amazing.. it just seems unreal.

I have always loved singing but I’m too shy to sing in front of people. I realize that that may be a bit of a problem lol, but I’m working on it. Lately, I’ve been singing and posting videos of myself on YouTube. I really hope this helps me get over my fear! I’m always hoping someone will “discover” me randomly one day! You know how you always hear about those celebs who were randomly discovered by an agent or whatever randomly? That’s what I wish would happen to me. However, I’m not sure I’m good enough to be wanted. I think I have a lot of practicing and learning to do before I get to that point!

I’ve also always wanted to be a dancer. I love watching people dance. I think it’s very inspiring and it seems like such an awesome stress reliever.

What are your dreams? What have you always wanted to do? Let’s share our stories and get to know each other better!