Finding Jobs Online

Finding jobs online has always been a struggle for me. There are days where I’ll just search for hours trying to find something new. I get pretty bored with what I’m doing fairly easily so I like to mix things up a bit and explore new areas. I have been taking on projects lately that I never thought I would be able to do. I have been reviewing electronics, writing FAQs for websites. These are things I never would have dreamed would have been possible. I’ve been very lucky to meet people online who are willing to give me a chance. I tell them straight up that I have no idea what I’m doing but I will work with them and see what we can come up with together. I think that open-minded attitude has gotten me very far.

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I have my days, where I feel so uncomfortable with the current project I’m working on that I just want to give up, but somehow, I end up finishing it and it’s such a great feeling. This is why I live to work online. The possibilities are endless and I’m learning so much more than I ever would have imagined. No “real” job could ever teach me this much. No real job could give me the opportunity to get to know people from all walks of life, all around the world. I am learning about different cultures and it’s fascinating. Even though people are so different, they are all the same in so many ways as well.

The world seems much smaller since I’ve been working online.

Learning To Love Again

Losing love in the past doesn’t mean your love life is ruined forever. There is hope for all of us. All you have to do is believe in yourself, trust your instincts and understand that being alone is healthy. One of the most difficult problems many young adults have is the inability and fear of being alone. Too many people rush into relationships because they want to be with anyone who will have them. While the situation may seem ideal at the time, later on it will become obvious very quickly that you don’t truly know yourself. Before you can love another person, you have to be able to love yourself. This probably has a lot to do with the high divorce rates that have been going on for a while now. People rush into things, don’t look ahead and think of the future and then realize who they are and what they want when it’s far too late.

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When your heart has been torn apart, you shouldn’t feel rushed to jump into a new relationship. Now is the best time for you to look back, figure out what went wrong and learn from your mistakes so you can have a healthier relationship in the future. I’m not saying this is going to be easy, but if you follow these simple rules you are going to be glad you did. Everything in life is a learning experience so don’t be afraid to “fail” once in a while.

Women Wearing the Wrong Bra Sizes

Do you feel like you may be wearing the wrong bra size? If you’re unsure if your bra is the right fit for you; consider the following:

Does your bra ride up your back?

Do your straps keep falling?

Does your bra feel uncomfortably loose or tight?

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If you can answer yes to any of the above, then you are most likely wearing the wrong bra size. So, why is it that so many women go through their lives wearing bras that don’t actually fit them? The answer is simple: they’re busy and they don’t think wearing the right size makes a difference. Think about this, when it comes to shirts and pants, what do most women do? They simply wear something that they can fit into and that looks good on them. While this may work for shirts and pants, bras are a different story. Wearing a bra that is the wrong size can cause problems for your back, or your chest. Now that you’ve heard that information doesn’t it seem more important to figure out what your true size is so you can live life more comfortably? It sure does to me! I must admit, up until recently, I didn’t realize I was wearing the wrong bra size. I just would grab whatever was cute and head out the door. I was always in a rush and wanted to get in, get out and get on with my day. However, now that I realize that wearing the wrong bra size can actually hurt my body, I am much more careful when selecting. If you are unsure of your size, there are many stores out there that will actually fit you and let you know what your size is.

Engaged!

I have the most exciting news ever! My boyfriend asked me to marry him the other day. I’ve never thought I would ever get married because of everything I’ve seen in my past. In this day and age, it seems like everyone is always breaking up and getting divorced. While I’m not against divorce, I personally don’t want to ever go through that experience. When I said “yes” to Chris, which is only because I really can see us making it work forever. I can see us getting through all the hard times and pulling through strong in the end. We have been through so much in the last year and a half that we have been together and it’s proven so much to me. I have changed so much, even in the past month or two. We are constantly growing, maturing and figuring out what we want in life. I get butterflies just thinking about him, and am excited to see him every single day. To me, that’s love. To me, love is knowing someone so well and being comfortable around them; it’s being vulnerable around them and letting them into your heart like no one else has ever been let in before. Chris has been here for me through so much and when I kept thinking he was going to give up on trying, he always stuck around.

I have no idea when we will get married, but that’s fine with me. I could do it tomorrow, or I could do it years from now. Anything works for me. I’m just so happy to have found my match!

Slacking On My Website

As many of you know, I’ve had a website for over a year now. It used to be such a huge deal to me. I would spend hours upon hours updating things, making new creative posts, and promoting. Sadly, since then I just don’t have the time for it anymore. I would love to be able to work on it as much as I was before but it’s gotten to the point now where it really just stresses me out more than anything, which isn’t what I wanted. I’m such a perfectionist, so I’m sure many of you can relate lol. It’s hard to be creative when you are constantly pressuring yourself to do better. So anyway, a little break for a while won’t be a bad thing. I know everything happens for a reason and I’m sure I will find something else that is more appealing to me. My main goal and focus in life is writing and helping people. If I could do both, then that would be my ultimate dream.

One of the main reasons I’ve been slacking on my website is because there are so many already established sites out there that are extremely helpful for people with anxiety, depression, and so many other things and I decided that instead of having the people find me specifically on my site, I would find them. I love logging into a site, knowing that I don’t have too much pressure on myself because I don’t own it and I can just post as much or as little as I’d like.

Helping people always brightens up my day. It’s what I live for.

Afraid To Be Taken Care Of

While there are so many girls out there in the world that would give anything to have a guy in their life that pays for everything, that does everything for them; the thought of that terrifies me. I don’t want to ever have to be taken care of. I have always been very motivated and I feel a need to make something of myself. While at this time in my life, I may not have an exact answer as to what it is that I’m going to become, I have no doubt in my mind that things are going to turn out alright. I take one day at a time and while I’m not making as much money lately as I used to, I am positive that this is completely worth it.

I would never want to put the pressure on another person to take care of me and to support me. Sure, I may be going through a hard time, but it is on my mind every day that I really need to get on my computer and work and overall I’m very proud of myself. I think the thing that holds me back some of the time is that I’m afraid of not being able to take care of myself. I’m worried that I wouldn’t be able to take care of myself but the more that I think about it, I know that even if I was 100% alone.. had no friend, no family; that I could figure things out on my own.

How do you feel about people who are supported by someone else? I don’t see anything wrong with it if that’s what a person wants to do but I don’t think that’s a happy lifestyle. What happens when you grow old and realize you haven’t accomplished anything? (Btw, only YOU can determine whether you accomplished enough or not, everyone’s situation is different)

Love & Other Drugs (SPOILER ALERT)

Honestly, when I saw the previews and posters for this movie, I thought it was just going to be another one of those sappy love stories; which I love, but sometimes they can get old. In the beginning, I thought it was just all going to be about sex and the main character (Jamie) being a total player and not wanting to actually settle down and fall in love with a girl.

Well, the story took a much unexpected turn and everything was pretty hectic for a while. The movie takes you on this roller coaster ride of emotions that make you laugh and then cry, get angry and upset etc.

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When you find out that the female main character (Maggie) is very ill, you start to wonder if Jamie is going to actually stay with her or not. It’s a really cute love story and a very true-to-life one. I really enjoyed how the characters were so real and it felt like this movie could be based on a true story. I couldn’t help but cry during much of the movie, because you really start to love Maggie and want her and Jamie to be together. Jamie goes out of his way, trying to do anything in his power to help Maggie’s medical condition. In time; however, Maggie feels that it is too much and she doesn’t want to bring Jamie into her hectic life. She realizes that him being with her isn’t going to be very easy and wants him to have the life he deserves.

I won’t spoil the ending, but you must see this movie. Us girls all need a good cry once in a while :p

Teens Having Sex Too Early

It really freaks me out when I look around and see how kids are acting these days. My younger brother knows things I didn’t know until I was way older than he is, my sister is acting in ways that I don’t think any virgin should act. What is up with kids growing up so fast? How is it that kids learn about sex so early? It really seems to me like there’s not much parents can do to stop the cycle, because if their kids have friends and go to school, they are going to learn all these things. I think what parents are failing to do is take the time to have those important talks with their children, letting them know all the risks involved in having sex, making sure they know how tough pregnancy is and how much having a child will change a person’s life.

There are so many kids that I see now that are just DYING to become pregnant. Sure, I watch a lot of shows like Steve Wilkos and Maury but it’s not only from that that I notice. Kids are just growing up so fast and thinking they are so mature and that they can handle anything, when they don’t even realize how much sex really does change your life.

I had sex before I was ready and honestly, it changed me a lot. It made me feel disgusting and like I gave my body to someone who didn’t deserve it. I have been with two people before my current boyfriend and I can’t even tell you how often I think back and regret the past. I would love to say I’ve only been with one person. That would be a wonderful feeling. Stupid peer pressure lol!

Chris Working Two Jobs

I don’t know how my boyfriend does it, but he’s been working two jobs now for over month. I work from home and I can barely handle what I do sometimes. I have no idea what I would be like if I were working as many hours as he’s working. The most I’ve ever worked is 40ish hours a week (sometimes I had a few hours of overtime a week or so) and I would always go home and cry, not wanting to return to work the next day.

I just think he’s doing so amazing and I really look up to his determination. I used to be like that, spend a lot of time at work and was making good money (for what I needed to pay for at the time) and it was an amazing feeling but then I got to a point where I realized that I had to put my happiness before anything else. I know that may sound immature to some of you, but it works for me.

I am so proud of Chris for doing what he’s doing, but it puts so much more pressure on me than I already put on myself. I’m trying very hard to take one day at a time and work hard and just do as much as I possibly can. For some reason though, it just never feels good enough.

I’m just having one of those days. I need to relax. I know the feeling will pass.

Miley Cyrus Smoking

Who else has seen the Miley Cyrus video? I couldn’t believe it when I saw it. Sure, she’s done some pretty dumb things or whatever, but I always try not to judge. However, when you are a celebrity, you have to think about your actions and be more careful than a “normal” person would have to. I don’t think she understands that everything she does is going to be seen by everyone and that it could possibly ruin her career or cause her to lose important deals like movie roles or maybe product promotions etc.

I am the kind of person that feels that if people want to do drugs, that’s their own business. I just don’t want to know about it, I don’t want to be around it. In this case, though, I’m worried about her as a person. I feel that she’s doing that because something wrong. Either she is searching for some sort of release or she is trying to fit in. It’s sad to see people do things that hurt their bodies, even though I feel that it’s their body and if they want to hurt it, whatever.

How do you feel about Miley smoking with her friends?

I also want to bring up the fact that her so called “friend” recorded her and possibly leaked this video. I don’t know how the video got out, but if that’s the kind of people she hangs out with, then that’s very sad. People are always trying to hurt others. I hope that person gets busted for showing the video.

That’s all I’ve got for today. I’m off to play hangman. Share what you think about today’s topic!

Love Keeps Getting Stronger and Stronger

It amazes me how much I love my boyfriend and how much closer I feel to him each day. You would think that there would be a limit on how much you love someone, and once you love them what feels like “a lot”, that it would be done. (Meaning, you can’t possibly love them anymore) How is it then; that as each day goes by; I end up loving my boyfriend more and more and I feel closer to him all the time? I find it amazing lol. We’ve been together over a year now, and after all we’ve been through, he has proven to me that he cares about me more than I thought a person was capable of loving another person. He has taught me what it means to love another person. I thought I knew what love was, but I never did until I met him. I have major trust issues and I don’t like getting close to people, because I always figure that I’m going to lose them anyway, which I realize isn’t a good way to look at life, but it’s how I feel. When it comes to him, I would do anything for him (truly) and can honestly say for the first time in my entire life that I will be with him through anything. I don’t care if he was dying and couldn’t speak to me.. I would be right there with him, taking care of him because he is the most amazing, loving, caring person I have ever met. I love him with all my heart. He keeps me sane lol!

I heard about  this tennis game, so I’m going to check that out. Talk to you guys later!

1 Year Anniversary

My grandmother died on December 13^th, 2009 and I can’t believe it’s already been a year since she passed away. Losing her was such a hard time for me. She was my guidance, my “mother”, she was the person I went to whenever I was scared or had anything going on. I really didn’t think I could survive without her. Life seemed pointless without her. I’m so glad that in the past year, I have grown so much and learned to deal with her absence. I have learned to open up to those around me and accept help from those who care about me. Sometimes, I worry that people are going to give up on me and that I will end up all alone but when I sit down and think about it, I know that I’m just afraid to lose anyone again. Losing someone that means so much to you is very hard.

I don’t think I’ve ever dealt with her death and so I think I haven’t had time to heal. I hope that in time, I can feel “normal” again. (Whatever that is lol) I’m sure grandma would be very proud of me if she saw me today and she would recognize the good in what I’ve done instead of just seeing the bad, like I tend to do.

Wherever she is, I hope she’s happy and I hope she can see me. I really hope she’s with me.

Love you grandma!

The Vampire Diaries

I know I've been away for a while, but I'm back! :):)

This is my favorite new show. What’s really cool in my opinion is the fact that the main character is actually from my favorite show since I was 14 years old; called Degrassi. It’s really interesting how so many actors and actresses from Degrassi make it into larger shows in the United States. (The show originates from Canada) It’s always a nice surprise when I’m watching a movie and suddenly one of my favorite characters from Degrassi pops up out of nowhere lol.

Anyway, I think this is an awesome show. I like seeing vampires in a new light. Yes, I realize this is all part of the “vampire phase” that’s going on right now, but I think it’s really interesting and I don’t just like it because other people do. I think the show is very sexy, provocative and interesting. I am always excited to see the next episode. It’s like; the episodes can never be long enough for me. I wish this show could be more like a sitcom or something, so that there would be episodes every single day. That would really be amazing. I’m just not sure I would have the time to watch them all haha.

This makes me wonder… what do you think about this whole “vampire obsession” lately? Do you like it, hate it? Do you wish it would die? HAHA. I’m really glad to have finally found something that I’m really into other than just music and writing. Don’t even get me started about Twilight! Lol.

I know this is completely random, but I miss my exercise bike I had when I lived with my grandma. I think it would help me work out more.

Before I die..

I don’t have a huge list of things I want to do before I die, but they mean a lot to me. I’m sure  as I get older they are going to change, but here is what I have as of today lol:

I want to stay with my boyfriend, and get closer to him. I want him and I to build the kind of bond that I have always dreamed of and prove to people that, yes, it is possible. I want him and I to be those adorable 50 year olds that you see walking down the street.. holding hands and crazy in love. I hope to one day marry him and prove to everyone that marriages can last. I want to show him how much I love him by committing myself to him in front of our friends and family.

I would love to do a lot of traveling some day. I know it’s really expensive, but I’ve heard such great things about places like France and Italy. I think people who travel probably respect life more and understand people more. I don’t want to spend my entire life in the United States, never knowing what it’s really like to live. I want to try all kinds of foods, and I want to understand all kinds of cultures, religions and things like that.

Lastly, I would love to go further with my writing and hopefully publish a book; maybe more. I want to be known, not famous.

TWO JOBS!!

I am so proud of my boyfriend! He quit his crappy job at Big! Lots and got two jobs. I’m so excited for him to get started. He can get at least 40 hours at one and about 30 at the other. I really hope this isn’t too much for him! I personally could barely handle 40 hours when I was working. I mean, I could but I got overly stressed and felt like I was going to freak out. I couldn’t stand it! I started having really terrible panic attacks and would cry on every single lunch and break that I had. I had horrible dreams about work and would dread working even on my days off. I personally think working online is much easier and much more fun. I love picking my hours. Plus, I don’t have to work as many hours as most people.

I don’t see how people do it. I know that many people don’t want to do it, but they have to. It sucks that money takes over all of our lives. I wish money wasn’t as important as it is.

Anyway, I’m really excited to hear how he likes working at both Radio Shack and his driving job. The driving job is going to be amazing for him because he’s obsessed with driving. He’s going to get to drive brand new cars. I can imagine the kind of stories I am going to be hearing when he gets home from work.

Kindle

Does anyone reading this have a Kindle? I never thought I would have one, because I love having a physical book in front of me to actually turn the pages and all of that. However, when I got my new cell phone, there was a Kindle Application and I instantly got addicted. I started by getting little free samples here and there, and it started to completely take over my life. I wasn’t working very hard for a few days, because I became so addicted to reading.

The really cool thing about the Kindle is that it’s so light, and the battery for it lasts about a month or even more. I didn’t think I would get one because I already had the Kindle on my Droid, but it was so worth it. It’s nice to have books on my cell when I need them, but it’s even better on the Kindle. I love bringing the Kindle with me on road trips, because it lasts so long, and it’s easy to read even when it’s in the sunlight.

The only thing that is better about the Kindle on my cell phone is the fact that it has a backlight. I love how I can make the text white and the background black. It’s really nice to lay in bed and listen. My cell now has my life on it: music and books! Hehe.

What Can't You Stand?

I can’t stand when people are two faced and act like they know something about your life when they’ve never even been there for you. I also can’t stand when people make plans and then seem to go out of their way to make it so you can’t meet up and make you drive around in circles to find them. Lol.. yes, this happened to me recently and that’s why it’s on my mind lol.

I’m pretty easy to please though, but I just get annoyed with lame people. Some people are just so dumb lol. Like for example: drivers! At least where I live! OMFG! There are some people that are so terrifying on the road that I have NO freakin clue how they ever were allowed on the road in the first place. You have probably seen them, the ones who cut you off or run lights. You notice how there’s NEVER a cop around when they do it? Cops are always around when something minor happens but not when someone REALLY deserves a ticket. No, cuz that would just be oh too convenient lol.

It also drives me crazy when people won’t call you back or are being super-immature and don’t want to talk to you. OR, how about when people text you and you would rather call cuz it’s easier, but they just keep texting and won’t answer your calls lol. That always cracks me up!

Wow, I feel a lot better hehe. So, what bugs you?

I Wanna Get Married

I can’t believe I’m even saying this, but I want to get married. I promised myself growing up that I would never attach myself to someone and let them “control” me in that way. However, after being with my boyfriend for a year, I am completely sure that he is the man I want to be with for the rest of my life. I’m sure a lot of people may think that 21 is too early to know something for sure, but I’ve never been more positive. Everything with Chris has been like this. Even before we were dating, I knew he was right for me and the one. I didn’t want life without him. He makes everything better, everything fun and exciting.

It’s just so crazy to me that I actually even have this on my mind. I never thought I would feel this way. You see, I have major trust issues, since growing up with my mom and seeing what she went through and how she treated people. I really thought that the only person I could count on was myself and hid my feelings and pushed everyone away. I realize now that it’s okay to want someone in your life, open up to them and bring them closer. Being alone just isn’t for me. He makes my life better and I want him a part of my life forever.

That’s what I realized, there’s a difference between feeling you NEED someone and just LIKING them in your life. That’s how I know things are right with him. I know I don’t need him but I want him around me.

Laying In The Grass

I have been having so much fun with my dog lately! I love laying in the grass with him. He gets all excited when I lay down, and he jumps all over me. Luckily he’s only like 3 pounds or it would probably hurt me lol. I could sit outside with him for hours and just let him run around. He’s so funny! I’m not sure what it is but he’s obsessed with leaves. He’ll sit there and chew on them. He also loves pinecones. Does your dog do that too? I just think it’s so hilarious.

I feel bad lately though, because I haven’t been walking him very much. I guess I’ve just been so tired from working and everything and I just don’t have the energy for much of anything right now. Any tips on how to walk your dog and just how to stay motivated? I know he needs to get out of the apartment more and get some fresh air; so do I.

I’m so glad we have three puppies, because they can all grow up together. I just wish they knew how to keep it down at night. They’re always running around, chasing each other; barking lol. I bet the neighbors downstairs hate us! Luckily, they’re moving really soon. I’m really surprised people haven’t complained about them. There was only one time that the neighbor told us that our dog was being loud and it was like 11pm. I felt really bad!! I didn’t realize he was that loud. I guess I just get used to him doing it. He hates when we go to bed at night, because he just wants to stay up. He gets all angry when we turn out the lights lol.

I've Always Wanted To...

I’ve always wanted to be a singer. As far back as I can remember, I’ve always wanted to be a singer. I used to dance in front of the school back in Elementary School and there was just this awesome rush that came along with it. I will never, ever forget that feeling! It’s amazing to see the crowd and people cheering! I love seeing people dance along with me and all into what I’m doing. The lights on you are also amazing.. it just seems unreal.

I have always loved singing but I’m too shy to sing in front of people. I realize that that may be a bit of a problem lol, but I’m working on it. Lately, I’ve been singing and posting videos of myself on YouTube. I really hope this helps me get over my fear! I’m always hoping someone will “discover” me randomly one day! You know how you always hear about those celebs who were randomly discovered by an agent or whatever randomly? That’s what I wish would happen to me. However, I’m not sure I’m good enough to be wanted. I think I have a lot of practicing and learning to do before I get to that point!

I’ve also always wanted to be a dancer. I love watching people dance. I think it’s very inspiring and it seems like such an awesome stress reliever.

What are your dreams? What have you always wanted to do? Let’s share our stories and get to know each other better!